Good times; Bad times

2007-12-02T23:38:00.000+08:00

MOVED.

catch me @ http://www.carinex88.wordpress.com/ instead.

see u there.

2007-11-28T23:33:00.000+08:00

state of emotions is in a stable mood now. i've thought a few of the troubling issues, and have come to a conclusion for some of them. and i'm praying to gohonzon that they will work out, in the best way possible, without any party getting hurt.

i used to think that i'm not important to my friends, that my live or death would not matter at all. but, a friend showed me that i actually play a large role in their lives. when i'm emotional, they would get upset too. thank you friend, for opening up to me, for giving me the opportunity to learn from my mistakes. and i hope you benefit from the talks we had. i guess i've pretty much painted a very low role of myself in my friendships, hence the lack of confidence.

now that i'm not-so-emo, my friends are. i'm trying to think of ways to cheer them up, but nothing much seems to come to my mind. the only thing i cn do is offer my support(= so guys, gambette! dont give up pls!

one of my closer friend seems to be in a very emotional state these days. i'm sad cause i cant help to relieve him of his 'burdens'. i sincerely wish and pray things would be much much better for him, that he dont deserve all this shit that he's in. dear friend, pls pls dont ever give up. i might not be able to offer you much comfort, but just know that i'm really here for u, as a friend, as a listener, as someone for u to vent ur anger on... just go ahead. u have the privillege. =) the things you have given me. the support you have provided, i cant say how much i really appreciate them in words. right now, i just want you to be happier. to 'come' out from this cycle of unhappiness.

2007-11-25T00:22:00.000+08:00

finished most of the work to be done for drug deve projec slides today at ziling house. her's neighbourhood pretty quiet, and her house has a very nice view of sentosa, mount faber and many other places. its nice and relaxing. i wish i had a view like that. but still, i love my current house and i'm nt planning to move away anytime in the near future.

i had the talk i wanted to with a friend this afternoon. as to whether it went well or how i wanted it to, i cant comment much. prolly cause it did not really result in what i thought would. yep, so i guess i'll just take things one at a time.

i've heard comments about being too overly sensitive and yes, i do acknowledge that fact. but, i still have something to say. would you rather have a sensitive carine or one who is very cold-blooded? i guess i should say a word of fairness for myself. the reason why i think that way was because i treasured the friendship, and so i treated every sentence, every word with respect. so when people thinks that they dont mean it that way and i misinterpret it, okie fine. so from the next time onwards, i shant take everyword into heart. so maybe its good i revert back to the old days where i dont give a damn of what's happening around me yeah. just me, myself and the world alone. you want that, and i'll give u that.

kim's been telling me that she has practically lost hope in friendships, after seeing the way how people treated her in aus, and going thru 'hell'. i dunno if i want to be like her. not bothering much about the stuff around me. not bothering to take the initiative to talk things out with people. somehow, i still feel a link, a bond with the people around me. there are many i treasure a lot. but who knows? maybe circumstance will change me..

its true its pointless to keep thinking about the same old issues that keep bothering me. but i cant help it. they'll just pop into my mind whenever i'm alone. i feel so helpless. i might as well just hide in my shell. sounds like a good idea. bury myself in the books. so i dont have the time to think about other issues...

its another emo entry ah..

note: thanks Dhiviya for your concern.

good times indeed!

2007-11-23T23:19:00.000+08:00

this week was quite a bad week for me. busy rushing thru assignments, projs, preparing for sfg test, which i think i can at least obtain a 'B', so i was pratically over-stressed. in addition, there were other emotional problems that i had to battle with, friend's problems.. own problems.. there's just too many issues for me to handle. i just felt like giving up on everything. but, i know i cant afford to be so. i have to keep fighting on...

anyway, kim stayed with me on sun and mon night. talks were great, being with her was simply great. i guess it kinda of 'took' my mind off issues that i did not want to face. dinner with yi and mei on mon at dian xiao er.. the food not-so-bad. (: yeah, so when she went to stay with her mum an family on wed, i guess the issues came charging at me, non-stopping. and many a times, i get the urge to scream at people, and shut myself out. just be alone, since everyone has the ability to make me frustrated, even the close ones.

i cant simply handle conflicts well. what should i do? i cant say nor talk it out, yet keeping it inside is turning me crazy. i cant help feeling helpless and the only thing i'm able to do to release all these frustrations and stress is through crying.

But, anyway, i hell glad this week is over. weekends are here, as least i can breathe. and today's dinner/meet-up with sujith was simply wonderful. though he could only stay for a short period, it was certainly assuring to see him. he's kinda like medicine for me. =) i'm so damn glad he's here. and ben joined us (sha, anne, me) for dinner too. he's a sweet nice friend whom i really admire and respects a lot. =) so at least my weekdays ended pretty well.

took some pics. so check them out.=)

`anne.carine at orchard.

`wonder whats anne trying to do? LOL

- Gals-night out at VIVO
`carine.yi.kim

`kim.carine.mei(:

`Ta-da!girl-friends.

`candid!

`and its US again.(:

perspections...

2007-11-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

we always say there are 2 sides to a story right? so yeah... bottom line is, dont put too much trust into others' words when we arent the main 'characters' in the story. and, listen and observe more.

anyway, i pondered upon an important question that kept lingering around in my mind. and its quite sad when i realized i actually do not 'know' a friend whom i have been holding dear to my heart. its real sad, but i guess i cant really do much about it.

well, but i had great fun today. it was the best for this week.

(=

2007-11-14T16:43:00.000+08:00

proteomics test was so tricky!!! i'm still hoping for at least a B+.

anyway, mood's getting better, which is a good news right? hope it gets even better tmr.

kim's flight might be delayed, due to some miscommunication and error in booking. mmm, guess i have to wait a few more days to see her. hopefully she'll be able to catch the 16th one.

currently listening to fish leong's latest album on imeem.com... so far so good. her voice is good(=

long list of assignments waiting for me to complete. geeh. guess the final sem is not going to be smooth after all. stressed! there's still a clincial trial quiz waiting for me, and genomics test coming up next tues. genomics! =(

shall stop my ranting now. got to ponder over my resume... its due tmr!

till then!

` what has happened have already happened.. its no point pondering over who's right or wrong..

2007-11-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

wonder was it because i did not have a good night sleep; had been hearing comments that i'm looking very tired today.. guess so bah.. emotionally and physically..

i'm too tired to think much now..

what i want is quiet and peaceness to concentrate on my studies.. but it seems that i cant have it in school.

hiax.

live each day as it is bah..

2007-11-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

so you think i'm not important to be invited... but still had the cheek to ask me if i wanna share..

have you considered my feelings?

2007-11-11T10:17:00.000+08:00

True Friends
`lyrics by Ong Boon Cai (SSA)

Everyone is a friend
It is what we make of it
Though true friends are hard to find
They are always there, waiting for you

Make friends with our sincerity
They will respond with dignity
Many know blood is thicker than water
But few know true friends can be better

I have many friends
Friends that I cherish deeply
I have many true friends
They are as good as my family

To all the people out there
Make friendship our call
For as long as we embrace each other
As good friends, true peace will come together

2007-11-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i do chide myself for being too soft-hearted to others, thereby letting them step over my head, and taking advantage of me. yet, its kinda of like i know about it, but i'm not doing anything or much about it. it sucks.

chatted with a few pals online last night. in one of them, we talked about the problems surfacing amongst us, whether does each of us actually realise it, but yet does not take any actions, or if the others are probably still ignorant of it. for me, i guess i'm just too tired. i admit i myself do not wish to put in any more efforts into it, cause i just dont feel the bond that tightly anymore. i might have want to do something to salvage it, but since things have turned out to be this way, i guess we should just leave things as they are. its really sad, but i guess we all had a part to play for the way things turned out to be...

thinking back abt wss actually brings back many sad memories, apart from those happy ones. the regretness i had over a lost friendship... not being able to do anything much about it... sad how things turn out between the 2 of us.. upset how i wasnt really part of the group when everyone else were.. disappointed that people whom i cared for and treated as good friends failed to understand my feelings.. sad that actually sec sch life wasnt that great after all. fun it was, but it was never meaningful..

i think its really sad how we cant 'show' our true self to others. how we need to protect ourselves.. how we are so particular about how others view us.. how people still judge others' by their appearance. yes, no doubt i am not pretty, nor beautiful, nor attractive as the others, yet i have a kind heart. but how many would actually 'see' this? i dont know. i dont have the answer. what i can do is be proud of myself. learn to be more confident of myself. if others fail to appreciate me, then i guess i cant do much about it too.

in fact, life in nyp isnt great either. the talk with the class did help, in some way or another, but nevertherless, most of the things still remain the same. in fact, whats hurting is people whom i considered close to me dont really understand how i feel. and yet there are others whom i'm not very close to, but could see the hurt i'm gg thru...

life is just so contradicting. i want to be truly happy.. and i have a long way to work towards that. close friends or even friends near to me are not feeling good, and i feel sad that i cant do much to help them. the only thing i can do is to offer my moral support.

that should be all for now. got to do my revision.

till then.

2007-11-07T22:37:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DARLING QIUMEI(:

mb0505 class gathering

2007-11-07T22:19:00.000+08:00

WARNING! tons of pics ahead!

Event: MB0505 2nd Class Gathering At Yew Mei Green.

Enjoy(:

i'm a fighter; aint a quitter!

2007-11-07T18:07:00.000+08:00

i'm in a much better mood now. test's over(: wee. oh well, there's 3 more coming up next week. lol. But, there's a very happy occasion for me to look forward to next week.. and thats kim coming to s'pore on the 15th, around 9 plus at night. and she'll be staying over at my house. we'll share a room! cant wait for that(: i'm really elated! hee. will not be able to meet her at the airport though, since i have diamokukai till 9.30pm, but shall see her at home.

anne handled me a small gift just after mbidis lecture. its really very sweet of her. i was touched. the gift was a smiley key chain((: i just smile when i look at it. thanks so much, anne(: thanks for tolerating my 'bad' mood for the past week. *hugs*

u know, many times i have thought of why i have to be in the lead all the time, and not be a follower, where things might have been less taxing and stressful. yet, i've come to realise that this is my mission. i'm a leader. i'm a fighter. its actually my good fortune that i possess leadership qualities. and i should be proud of that as not everyone is able to be the person to lead. i mean, its easy to follow the lead, but never easy to be the one leading yeah. those who have been in such positions would be able to udnerstand my situations. (:

anyway, the main point is. i should not be complaining about it anymore in the near future. rather, i should take it upon myself and grow to be a good and capable leader. one where people can look up upon me and respect me. (: so i'm going to keep working hard towards this!
at times when i'm really tired, i'll just take a short break, pause, regenerate my energy and continue to fight back!

you can do it, carine(:

ups and downs

2007-11-06T14:22:00.000+08:00

taking a break; so that means i can blog for a short while(:

taken my bath (feel so refreshed now!) and lunch (yummy tuna sandwiches). in a good mood currently. wonder how long it'll last? lol. okok, i'll be a little more positive.

sometimes, i just wonder, why is it when good fortune comes knocking on your door, the bad guys follow behind huh. wanna bash up the bad guys so that they will not come and disturb me. hehe. well, as you all know, i've fallen prey to influenza once again. :( i guess partly it was due to low life force and emotions from the past few days.

been feeling very vexed and frustrated for the past few days. gets irritated easily and school and friends dont seem to be helping things either. just wanted to have some time alone. with no one besides me, nagging or bugging me.. maybe thats why i've 'fallen' prey to this illness yeah. well, but i'm getting better, immume system is fighting the virus (gotta work harder, yeah!) and so i'll be in the pink of health in no time(:

road to recovery

2007-11-06T11:46:00.000+08:00

feeling much better now. sorethroat is still present, but the runny nose is gone. thankfully.
test on wed. need to mug for it now.
i'll update another time.

`i question myself why i feel this way when i see you...

2007-10-31T23:36:00.001+08:00

i am so sick and tired of journal papers.

2007-10-30T22:26:00.000+08:00

too busy to blog.

so many stuff that had happened. I'll share them with you all soon.

Promise(:

Highlights from HCM - Ngon

2007-10-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

Here's pictures taken at a well-known vietnamese restaurant (Ngon) famous for their wide variety of food and affordable prices. The total bill for the day was about 20 bucks or less than that. Shiok right? Haha. If you are going to viet, this restaurant is a must.

Highlights from Ho Chi Minh - Part 1

2007-10-20T11:06:00.000+08:00

GOLDEN DRAGON WATER PUPPET THEATRE
Ho Chi Minh City

The water puppet shows were previously shown in Hanoi only. However, during my recent visit, i learnt from Ms Hang, a friend of my dad, that they have come to HCM too! I was thoroughly excited. Could not wait to see it. Took quite a number of pics, but most of them were disfigured by 2 caucasians =(

Nevertheless, enjoy the folloing pics. I've managed to crop out their heads! I'll post the videos sometime later.

`entrance to the theatre. the puppets look life-like. dont you think so?

` closer look at the puppets.

`show's just started. this was the first scene. apparently, the whole show's in vietnamese, so i cant understand a word at all. lol. there were 10 short stories in total.

`boat racing and dancing, anyone?

`cool! a group of men chasing after a turtle on a boat in the upper 2 pics. and there's a fight between a man and a peacock in the lower 2.

`farming, weeding, rice anyone?

` i think i liked this story the best. its something about a few fisherman fighting with a cat? haha, spot the cat climbing the bamboo shoot?

` and i hereby presents you the people who made the puppet show possible(: *claps claps.

thats all for now. stay tuned.

TGIF

2007-10-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

its friday.

and sat will soon arrive in a few hours time.

phew, time seems to be crawling for this current week. anyway, i'm glad the first week is over. here comes presentations, tests, exams, projects..

i'm getting excited about business management, bioenterprise and innovative marketing. okay, not really enthu about innovative mkt, as we have to 'think out of the box' for a product. and i heard that the lecturer is in charge seems to have the preference of shelving people's ideas and details. in short, it means he's difficult to please. =(

anyway, i hope i can come up with some good and creative ideas. or rather, my group. currently, i totally have no ideas. any suggesstions anyone? i need all your help!

wanted to upload the pictures i had taken during my trip to viet, but it seems that blogger image uploader is not working at the moment. oh well, i guess another time perhaps? there's like quite a number of images due for uploading. lol. not forgetting lydia's bday celebration. have not took the pics from mei yet though. so that has to wait.

tmr's the class gathering. i'm praying for a good weather. that's all. initially, i was pretty upset upon learning some of the closer friends in 0505 will not be able to attend. but well, i respect their decision. i can possibly tie them up and bring them over right? its just a feeling of disappointment as i've really put in efforts.

mood's being slightly unstable recently. all the ugly emotions are surfacing. and i hate that. thankfully, i have the gohonzon to 'bring' my self back onto the right track.

thats all for now. will update soon, i promise!

2007-10-17T21:33:00.000+08:00

this week seems so slow... i'm both emotionally and physically tired.

but, i need to push myself out of my comfort zone.

guess i really need to work harder... to handle both school matters and keep my emotions under control.

```we often tend to overlook others' misfortunes amist their fortunes...

Leadership

2007-10-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

Well, I'm taking on a new leadership role this month.

I'm kinda looking forward to it. Though its not a smooth-sailing role, but I'm sure I'll grow from it. Its time to 'return' to the organisation and to sensei.

So good luck for me!

Timetable's OUT.

2007-10-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

So finally the timetable's out. Its not exactly packed, just.... i cant seem to find the right words. So here goes..

Mon: 12nn till 5pm; no break.
Tues: 8am till 1pm; 2 hrs break at 10am.
Wed: 9am till 1pm; no break.
Thur: 8am till 6pm; 1 hr break at 12nn.
Fri: 9am till 6pm; 2 hrs break at 12nn.

Hmm, all i can say is thank god school starts at nn on monday(:

See ya around`

Reflections

2007-10-08T21:05:00.000+08:00

The trip to viet was simply wonderful.

The 11 days spent with Anne were not wasted. We had good talks with each another, and I'm thankful for her lending a ear to me. We chatted about the class... about friendships... about work.. In fact, I broke down during one of our conversation. I guess it was due to the pressure building inside of me... Those emotions.. All of a sudden, I just felt like crying out loud, voicing out my feelings. I felt much better indeed. And a clearer mind too.

Towards the class, i have only one word: dissapointment.
I've throughly given up. If JH is not willingly to switch roles with me, I'll step down. In fact, it would be of much change anyway. What am I to them? Never have I been recognised as the classrep. I'm just a pawn. Someone to call for help during exam periods, someone to provide hints, someone who can provide answers for their questions. So that be it. I told myself that would be the last and final time I cried for the class. Really, its not worth it man. I feel so stupid worrying for them... Its just so stupid...

Nevertheless, I did made a few good friends from the class. And i felt contented that some of them recognised my efforts. So thanks people.

2007-10-07T13:19:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!

its a celebration!

2007-09-19T12:34:00.000+08:00

And so we celebrated my younger brother's birthday at home yesterday. Its a simple yet joyous affair, i could say. He's one year older now, and hence i would hope he'll grow up to be more mature(: Nevertheless, i wish him all the best and good luck for his exams!

Received an sms frm nyp this morning. dist for fyp(: i'm glad my efforts paid off. so gpa's currently still at 3.5 guess i have to work harder to push it to 3.6 for the last sem!

chao~

haircut.

2007-09-18T11:24:00.000+08:00

And so, i went to cut my hair, in case you've not noticed. i recalled the hairstylist was saying that i'm daring to cut my hair short. lol. thinking of this, its indeeed true, i guess. i had been thinking of getting a haircut for a week, and i just had this suddden urge to cut it short. and there i go.

i guess the fringe looks kind of weird on me. makes my face looks rounder? lol. it wasnt exactly what i wanted to, but oh well, i guess since i'm still young, i should experiment with the different hairstyles. think i'm still going to keep short hair, at least for now. surprisingly, i did not seem to miss my long hair very much. except for my fringe though.

i'm beginning to like my current hairstyle. well, i do have to accept it, since its cut. lol. asked many of my friends, and they said they like my current hairstyle as compared to the previous. s i guess a change is good too.(:

anyway, results will be released tmr, i think. i'm hoping to obtain a dist for my fyp. pray hard.

2007-09-15T12:47:00.000+08:00

Human relationships are just so complex.

There were many times when I wondered, 'why did they chose to inform the other party instead of me?. Yet, its useless thinking of these stuff. Not only will my mood becomes affected by it, thinking about these will not improve the situation.

Thats why nowadays, i've decided to change my thinking. Rather than harping on who's more important, i might as well spend this energy on doing things which i like and enjoy. Take the class gathering as an example. Rather than thinking of why the classmates chose to feedback to Kelvin instead of me, I might as well ask myself this, "for whom is the class gathering for? for whom should i help out in the gathering? after asking myself that, i sat down and thought hard, over a period of a week. and i got my answer. i want to do this gathering, because i want to thank ms chan for all her efforts. i want to help in this gathering, because i am a part of mb0505, and not because of mb0505.

so there you see. a change in mindset. now, i feel much more carefree, because i am not burdened with the class. previously, i used to carry everything on my shoulders, worrying about small issues.. which is really a waste of time since they go unappreciated.

its just aint worth it.

Recommended!

2007-09-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

Artise: TAMAKI NAMI
Single: Brightdown
Genre: Rock, Jpop.

Enjoy(:

something random.

2007-09-02T14:40:00.000+08:00

Life is getting rather boring these days.

I just cant wait to get out of this cycle, so much that I would rather school starts the next week so that i'll have issues to work with. yet, i'm dreading school cause of the upcoming modules and the envt i will be exposed in again. =( Guess the only comfort I have is dad's coming back soon(: and hopefully i'll be able to have some qualiy time spent.

kim's sick, i hope she recover soon. i know the feeling of falling sick well, yeah. anyway, guess all my friends are busy with their lives at the moment. felt kinda left out and lonely, but yeah, i know this is not the time to be sensitive and moody again. =) i'll cheer up soon, i guess. geesh, hate to admit this but i just miss her alot though. its a rare thing that i can have the opportunity to meet such a great and close mate, and yet we are separated by distance. it just the feeling of frustration that you cant do much when your friend is hurting. hmmp.

well, i shant elaborate much. this is just a depressing post.

chao.

Farewell, tll.

2007-08-27T11:57:00.000+08:00

24 Aug 2007, Friday was the last day of attachment I had with tll. All in all, it was a fulfilling and memorable 6 months stay at tll. Although life was not exactly smooth-sailing throughout the 6 months, I'm glad i had a good mentor and great labmates to pull me through, not forgetting the encouragements I received from gakkai members and my family.

Thank you all!

Somehow, i left tll with mixed feelings on that particular day. A little sadness cause I'm going to miss the new friends I have made during the attachment period. A little upbeat cause the holidays are coming. A little empty cause I feel as though a part of me have disappear.

And, it was this particular morning that I fell down and scrapped both knees. Surprisingly, it did not hurt terribly, considering I could still walk downhill to the busstop, toured around the basement of vivocity, take the bus to yck interchange, walk the long distance to block R and back to the interchange again. Wonderwoman right? But certainly, it did not last long. The pain came during the night, hurting so much that I could not even walk around at home. So now I'm immobile, i guess.

Well, painful memories aside, heres some pictures which I took on my last day!(=

Plant Systems Biology Group consist of:

Sun Bo - the 'big' brother who takes care of us.

Kian Hong - the bubbly man who never fails to make us laugh.

Siou Ting - my superb mentor.

Zhou Jie - new member that joined us recently. She's sweet and nice.

Kai Qin - brightens up our lab with his presence.

Xiang Hui - our food connoisseur(:

`Plant Systems Biology Group! (from left; clockwise, xiang hui, kaiqin, sunbo, Dr Ito, Kian Hong, Zhou Jie, Me, Siou Ting)

`My mentor and I(= I feel really fortunate to have her as my mentor! She's sweet, thoughtful and helpful. Hee.

More Tests.

2007-08-18T23:25:00.000+08:00

Did more tests - just for fun. lOlx

Your Envy Quotient: 40%

You are an occasionally envious person, but jealousy doesn't usually get the better of you.
You're wise enough to know that envy feels horrible - and does nothing to improve your life.
A little jealousy is normal: so go ahead and let yourself feel it. But don't let it bum you out!

How Much Envy Do You Have?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

You Communicate With Your Body

This isn't as bad as it sounds, it just means that you're a "touchy-feely" person.
You need a lot of affection in your life. And for you, this means both giving and receiving little touches.
Warm hearted, you bond with people easily. In fact, you often feel a little sad when you're not in the company of others.
A little moody, you tend to be controlled by your emotions. But a bit hug always comforts you!

How Do You Communicate?

Your Psyche is Blue

You are deeply emotional and very connected to everything (and everyone) around you.
By simply understanding other people, you are able to help them heal and let go.
While you are a very deep and thoughtful person, you do have a very silly, superficial side.

When you are too blue: the weight of the world's problems hangs over you

When you don't have enough blue: you lack perspective and understanding

What Color Is Your Psyche?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Evaluating

You are great at looking at many details and putting them all together.
You are talented at detecting subtle trends, accuracy, and managing change.

You should major in:

Statistics
Speech
Conflict studies
Communication
Finance
Medicine

What Should You Major In?

2007-08-17T18:21:00.000+08:00

Now that presentation's over and report has been submitted, i feel empty.

It seems that I am lacking something to fill in my life currently. Previously, there was attachment and fyp, yet now that both are ending in a week, i felt kinda at a loss.

Should i remain behind and help out? Or, should i rest at home?

Somehow, on my way to school for the presentation yesterday, i felt so foreign. It seems like school is so near, yet so far.And i realised i did not missed school at all, not even a little.

I guess i only miss the people there.

Now that they are no longer there, i guess its meaningless.

2007-08-17T09:20:00.001+08:00

You Are a Good Friend Because You're Loyal

You stick with your friends no matter what, even if you feel like they're doing the wrong thing.
You believe in letting people figure out their own path in life. It's not your place to interfere.

And part of your loyalty means that you'll do a lot for your friends. You definitely go the extra mile.
You'll even do great things for friends without them asking. After all, that's what friendship is all about.

You are truly a friend for life. And you have friends you've known since you were a kid.
Your friends can count on you to do a favor, remember a birthday, or just be there to listen.

Your friends need you most when: They can't turn to anyone else

You really can't be friends with: Fickle people who change friends quickly

Your friendship quote: "Friendship doubles your joys, and divides your sorrows."

What Makes You a Good Friend?

Fireworks! You just have to love them(=

2007-08-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

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HAPPY 42TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

2007-08-09T14:32:00.001+08:00

Its Singapore 42th birthday today. (=

6 days to deadline.

Status:
Presentation =99%
AES = 30%
Report = 45%

Dinner and fireworks with anne, eileen, cara and angie later. cant wait!

7 Days

2007-08-08T10:33:00.001+08:00

So here i am at home, trying hard to get myself focused. FOCUS!

Its kind of tough, considering its already 10 plus and i still have not yet started on my report for the day. tsk tsk. =(

Its so funny how i can get things done in the office and not at home. Yet, i prefer staying at home to complete my report.

Been having headaches recently. Mum says its due to insufficient sleep. Hmm.. 7 hours a day, insufficient? I say its due to the report. just the mention of it and my headaches will come.

Anyway, this is a so random post and i am here wasting my precious time typing this post when i should be writing on my introduction for the report.

so CHAO!

Oh, and i saw the wrecked taxi on my way to work yesterday. In case you are wondering what wrecked taxi i was talking about, go check out today's copy of THE STRAITS TIME and you will know.

9 Days.

2007-08-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

9 days left till submission of FYP.

16 AUG 2007.
9AM.
P.314
Lim Zeyi & Tai Lee Kian

Ok. lets see the current status of my fyp preparations:

PPT slides - 90%.
AES - 50-55%.
Report - 15%.

Shit. I still have a lot of work to do.

I'm STRESSED!

Stand By Me

2007-08-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me

If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh stand by
by me, stand by me, stand by me-e, yeah

Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me, oh now now stand by
stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Darlin', darlin', stand by me-e, stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Recommended!

2007-08-04T18:26:00.000+08:00

A Little Pain
By: OLIVIA_inspi_REIRA_TRAPNEST

Checklist.

2007-08-04T09:06:00.001+08:00

Lets see.

Ppt slides - 90%.
AES - 35%.
Report - 10%.

Got to put in more efforts for the report. I feel bad that I'm taking leave on Mon & Wed. =(
well, i'll make up by going back to office on fri, sat and maybe even sun.

harry with anne later =)

2007-07-31T20:57:00.000+08:00

missing-in-action for the past few days. trying to finish presentation and aes asap for fyp, before concentrating fully on the report.

yep, somehow... i am not in the mood to write the report. lol.

work was pretty smooth these days. after a 5months endurance and hard work, finally managed to finish at least 3 of the constructs. hopefully, the 4th would be ready soon.

thought that i would not be able to finish all constructs initially, but this week brought some good news.

(= i think its the good fortune i've accumulated through the weekend.

sat;;

attended the scholars' forum seminar at suntec ballroom2. it was quite good, i did felt a little more inspired after listening to the talk from david lim... however, i felt it was a pity that the 5 scholars who participated in the forum were all from jcs. and a majority of the public were from jcs. so well, i guesss i need not say much right?

anyway, i still have not made up my mind on which degree to pursue, or what field i would like to further in.. and besides, i dont feel the need nore urge to ge/obtain a scholarship. or maybe i cant even make the mark?

sun;;

signed up for the young womens division kenshu. met many old friends there... no doubt that i felt a little empty and lost when i saw people gathered in groups while im alone.

yet, thankfully, that feeling did not linger around. gained some knowledge from the gosho study, but realised i need to 'upgrade' myself too. hee. the testimonials from the senior leaders were very encouraging and i felt really motivated by them.

got very touched when i saw the sensei video shown after lunch. it was really inspiring to see sensei giving encouragement to the youth division members.

though it was just a video, i really felt sensei's spirit with us and before i knew it, tears were already swelling up at the side of my eyes... the choir is fantastic. even though i could not understand what they were singing, i could feel the joy from them. the smiling faces and the cheerful smiles. its like they were really singing from the bottom of their heart.

william how's coming this thurs. lol. heard from shijin that he's going to bring us for a meal. better get 'busy' on that day. lol.

thats all for now. its back to work.

2007-07-25T23:01:00.000+08:00

one word.

STRESSED!

i need more time.

2007-07-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

2 days of leave and its back to work tomorrow.

week 20 of fyp and there's still a number of things to complete.
AES;
report;
presentation.

i'm worried. yet, i'm still not doing much about my report. yep, still have not started on it yet. i know majority of the rest have started on theirs and most of them are probably finishing it soon. and i do know there are people out there who can still whine that they are worried about being unable to finish their report on time. *roll eyes*

well, humans are like this. complain, complain, complain. whine, whine, whine.

thats why i chose to be quiet from now on. i feel its pointless talking.

there's really no point in sharing your views with people who dont understand. furthermore, they have not been through what you have been through, so its like.. they can try to understand, but they still will not understand.

and kim's right too. having 1 or 2 close and true friends is sufficient for a lifetime.
i am indeed tired of talking things out. like what kim said, taking the initiative...
nw i finally understand her feelings.. how she felt during sec days... towards our friendship..

i am really fortunate to have kim.

though we are separated by distance, we are still linked by heart.

have you ever been able to talk to a friend for 4 hours straight? or even longer.. yes, thats the kind of friendship i have with kim... chatting about school.. family.. ourselves.. its never a dull moment with her.

kim, thanks fro being there for me(=

2007-07-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

work on weekends is so tiring. i practically had to drag my feet to work.

sat's night out with gfs to catch fireworks from ne show @ marina square.

fireworks beautiful as usual, though short.

2007-07-23T18:04:00.003+08:00

new skin!

love it cause its so colourful.(=

its a pity its quite small. so bear with it eh.

2007-07-22T08:59:00.000+08:00

SABO by kelvin,

here it goes..

Rules:
Each player of the game starts off by giving 6
weird things about themselves. People who get
tagged needs to write in a blog of their own 6
weird things as well as state the rules clearly.
In the end, you'll need to choose 6 people to be
tagged and list their names.

I love to daydream and fantasize alot, even when i'm awake.
I like to smack people's asses. (those whom are close to me, of course. though i seldom do it now... haha)
I like the feeling of being pricked by something sharp on my finger.
When watching dramas, i have the habit of watching the beginning and the ending befre proceeding to the middle. (weird huh?)
I am able to tell if i will be able to get along well with a person just by my sixth sense.
I get sick of pork and chicken if i eat it for 3 days consecutively.

There it goes. 6 random stuff about me.

Hmm, i shant point out another 6 ppl to do. Cause this is kind of lame. (hear that, kel?)

2007-07-18T20:28:00.000+08:00

Caught by the flu bug.

No updates till i'm better.

2007-07-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

I quote:

" Just as there are some foods you find distasteful, having people in your environment whom you dislike is an unavoidable part of life. While there's nothing wrong with not particularly liking certain people, it is wrong to put them down or behave in a hostile way towards them. They have the same right to exist as you do and do have their own opinions and ways of doing things... "

"How we treat others affect our own lives. It is important to be respectful in our behavior both for others' sake as well as for our own."

Having read this in the June issue of 'Creative Time'. I thought about the people around me and my relationships with them.

Yes, there are people whom i dislike. Or rather, whom i don't agree with their way of doing things.

It is really hard to accept, respect and live with people who have different mindsets and perspectives with us.

Yet, it is hard to find one who shares all the same interest as us, have the same thinking and mindset. Even family members disagree with each other at times too right?

But its all part of a learning process. Cause once we learn how to tolerate each another, we learn how to respect them for who they are.

I'm learning. I'm learning how to respect myself. And in the process respect others for who they are too.

Jia you bah! Carine!

2007-07-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

I'm so emotional these days.

I'm really trying my best to be happier.

Really.

Yet, the problems just seem to keep surfacing every now and then.. reminding me that they are still present..

What should i do?

2007-07-10T22:28:00.001+08:00

Its easy to see others' happiness.

Its nature to want to have what others have.

Yet,

how often have we see our own happiness?

our own good fortune?

Many a times,
we 'see' how others lead a good life.
But we never 'see' what lies behind the good life they are having.

Lets take a simple industrial attachment as an example.

We complain how our supervisors treat us.
We envy how our classmates/schoolmates' supervisors treat them nicely.
We complain the workload we have.
We envy those who have little workload and have more freedom.
We complain how pathetic our allowance is..
We envy those who are paid for the 6 months.

YET.

Everything comes with a price.
There's nothing that is free in the world.

Those who have more pay, their supervisors tend not to treat them well.
Those who have lesser pay, their supervisors tend to be better.
Those who have more freedom, their workload is heavier and tougher.
Those who have lesser freedom, their workload is lighter and not that stressful.

Didn't we learn and hear it ever now and then.

But yet, we chose to ignore it.

We wish..

We hope..

We envy..

And.. the result?

We start thinking how our attachment sucks..
How others are having a good time with their attachment while here we are dreading every moment of it.

Think...

Ponder..

Is there really nothing good that comes out of your attachment?

I only have one suggestion.

Stop, and look around you.

Look at the beautiful sky.

and read my words carefully.

There

are

far

more

important

things

for

us

to

worry.

Understand?

I'm not directing this to anyone in particular... Just hope people would be more thoughtful..

The next time you complain about your pay, think whether the person listening is having a lower pay than you?

The next time you complain about your workload, think if the person listening is also having the same amount or even greater workload than you?

The next time you complain about your supervisor, think if he/she is really that bad?

2007-07-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

Its surprising how work actually takes all our time again.

Every morning, i wake up to another day of work, experiments and experiments.

Sometimes, i just wonder.. What made me choose science?

Out of all the choices available.... why science?

Or, life sciences in particular?

What lies in the future for me?

Been feeling low these days. Maybe its cause i have not been chanting for some time.

Yes, i'm been lazy.

And, the higher your hopes, the bigger the disappointment right?

i should have known not to raise my hopes in the beginning...

Cause, its me who ended up getting hurt...

A very random post.

2007-06-30T13:02:00.001+08:00

` new york new york for dinner with candy, her friend (sry i cant remember his name =X), anne and sujith after presentation sometime ago. think its 2 weeks ago? haha. okie, my memory is failing me. =( tried the london style fish and chip. so-so only. price is reasonable, service is not so bad, but food is not up to my expectation.

`these are my 2 lovely pals. sujith and anne =) both looking great, as usual. but, sujith! stop your fake smile! lolx =p

`Boss's friend from Japan paid him a visit, and brought some muffins along for us. So nice of him. The muffins are from bakinboys. They look good, but the taste is not very fantastic. Probably cause its cold, so its kinda hard and a little tasteless. But nevertheless, its the thought that count! =) and i got free food, so cant complain much la. hehe.

`presenting the muffins! Dont they look delicious?

`dinner at superdog with ziling. its nice meeting up with friends once in a while to catch up with each another =) i find that the standard of superdog dropped a little? cause the lemon tea is not as good as before. lOlx. i'm rather critical of the food in this post. muhaha. tried the chili bacon hotdog bun. its delicious! recommened! (=

after dinner, we went to walk around vivo. our initial intention was to window-shop. but i ended up with a bag from club marc country new york. heard of the brand? and we cam-whored in the fitting room. lol. retarded us.

and so... after one and a half hour inside the fitting room, i bought a shirt and a pair trousers. They cost me hundred plus! But i guess its worth. cause they are on sale!

`nice? (=

have a good weekend ahead!

Un-lucky day.

2007-06-27T20:52:00.000+08:00

Started the day well with a good breakfast. Yet, it did not end well =(

Forgetful me left my hp in the drawer and had to return to the lab to retrieve it, and missed the shuttle bus as a result. On the way to the mrt station, there was this lady who refused to give way despite me saying 'excuse me' on the escalator.

Bad bad day.

Yet, i did learn something from my carelessness.

Sometimes, little things and actions will reveal a person's character. Lets just say i was kind of disappointed with the reaction i got. Maybe i expected a little more? Anyway, this incident made me more aware of what i should do, and how i should regard certain things.

Oh, the lunch was bad too. 1 chicken, 1 vegetable, 1 otah for the price of 4.80!
And its not like the food was FANTASTIC.

Gosh, i totally regret going there. I'm not going there again. Its a waste of my money. I could have 2 meals with that price.

Sometimes, i really wonder whats wrong with us humans..

If the food was horrible but cheap, i would understand the crowd.
But, not-that-great and expensive?

You can call me stingy or whatever smart names you can think of,

But, to me, its PRACTICAL.

Just like how i'm going to let the salary determine if i'm going back to TLL after grad. That is, of course, if my boss decides to hire me.

Cause, sadly, in singapore,

NO MONEY = NO TALK.

I'm not born with a silver spoon in my mouth.

I'm in no position to waste my parents' money.

When people are out there worrying if they should go into university or whether their good grades are sufficient enough to make the mark,

here i am having to worry if i have the money to pay for the fees.

So, dun come and talk rubbish to me.

WELL,
I'm not complaining about being poor. In fact, i'm blessed with other things that cant be bought with money. I should say i have a good character, valuable friends and a complete family.

To me, thats sufficient.

I'm going to make it big one day.

Just wait and see.

QUIZ TIME

2007-06-24T00:36:00.001+08:00

Here's another quiz for ya people.

Its much simpler that the first one.

=)

My Likes and Dislikes

Great Singapore Sale

2007-06-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

Is the GSS really that great?

Hmm, i cant say on behalf of others, but in my opinion, its not exactly fantastic.

Cause i cant really find something that i want!

And those that i love are not on sale.

=(

Went Orchard for family outing today.

Dinner at Eastern Restaurant at Centrepoint (brother's and my treat for dad);
walked down to Wisma;
window-shopped at TOPSHOP/TOPMAN and French Connection (the clothes are FAB! but damn ex la);
shopped and bought a top at ESPRIT.

Let me tell you... i saw this jacket at ESPRIT, its simply fab and a must-have!
But..... it cost 129.90 SING dollars...

No kidding....

But i should say the price is quite reasonable, considering the brand and the material and the way the jacket fits in.

I wanna that jacket!!!

Anyone interested in buying it for me??

Aha...

Shall start saving money again.

I'm so broke.

2007-06-22T20:06:00.000+08:00

Its Friday(=

Wee. Went to the airport to receive my parents. Glad that they are back, finally.

Life wasn't fantastic without them. Yes, i missed my dad, i missed my mum.

And, now that my mum's back, i need not do so much household chores!

Yes, i'm looking forward to more free time.

But, i'm going to help out with the chores too. They are simply too tiring for one individual to handle. I think my mum is a supermum!

I appreciate you tons, MUM!

2007-06-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

Its falling apart...

I cant wait for friday to arrive.

friday.. friday...

2007-06-16T12:51:00.000+08:00

life is so boring for me.
presentation's next week, but there have been no notifications of the exact date, time and assessor's name YET.
how efficient, nyp.

Oh, and i have to let my supervisor mark my individual assessment next week. Off all times, it has to be a period after he learn of a series of bad news from the rest of the lab members.

I guess i have to pray hard.
And hope he's able to pass a good judgement on me.

Quiz Time

2007-06-15T23:52:00.001+08:00

Do me a favor and participate in the following quiz yeah?

Thanks!

How well do you know me?

2007-06-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

Presentation for lab meeting went quite well. Boss commented 'well done'. So i guess i need not worry too much. The only problem i have now is to cut short my script from 22 min to 10 min!!

Lolx.

Anyway, i met up with some of my pri sch friends last night. Had steamboat at marina bay. Food's not exactly fantastic, but the company's great.

(from left - julia, jasmine, ailong, me, zhixiu, yang sheng, joo boon, u-xen, fabian)

Its been 5 years (or 7 for some) since i last saw them. Appearance wise, most of them still look the same, but there were a few (like Joo Boon!) who had changed a lot. Halfway through the dinner, it struck me how time really flies. We were just 12 years old when we took our PSLE, and now a majority of us have celebrated our 19th birthdays.

Old friends are definitely treasures, thats what i can say.

(=

2007-06-11T20:40:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired...

Presentation for lab meeting tomorrow...

Wish me luck(=

Snap and Shoot!

2007-06-10T23:38:00.001+08:00

Dinner with gfs @ fish and co;

Sending the 6 guys off at changi airport;

UPs and DOWNs

2007-06-03T14:13:00.000+08:00

It was a week full of emotions, i should say.

Lets talk about work first.
Next week will officially be my first week of FYP. Well, i will still be attached to TLL. So it will be considered my 13th week. Project is still ongoing. There's still quite alot of work to do, and my boss did express his decision in bringing the project to a further stage. So there will be plenty of work for me to do and learn till the end of my 6 months stay at TLL. Not that I'm complaining though, as the people in my lab are very sociable, nice, and willingly to teach.

There's been a slight hippcup in my constructs though. I guess cloning work is not as easy as it seems. Lets just hope that my mentor and I will be able to figure out the problem and solve it asap, so that we can proceed on with the constructs.

Now, about school.
Classmates doing their FYP in school have officially handed in their reports, signalling the end of their 3 months FYP. In addition, 6 of them (kelvin, marcus, zeya, ernest, sze ho and ben) has left for their overseas attachment on 1st June. Went to send them off at the airport that day, and i should say i was almost, read carefully, almost, overcame with emotions. But, thankfully, i managed to keep calm and composed, or so i hope. I shant elaborate further on those feelings cause they are very personal. Lets just say i'm feeling much better now yeah(=

Also attended the class gathering at Dr Chan's house the week before. Basically, it was a chance for us to update ourselves on each other. Hence, i was glad i went. Took a number of pics, shall post them up when i'm done editing them. Managed to have a good talk with Sujith too(;

And, lastly, friends.
Frankly, i'm at a loss. Its the first time i'm facing this sort of emotions. Hate and Love? I just don't have any idea how i should handle this friendship. Whether i should give ourselves another chance? Or leave it hanging there? I dont know. And i dont want to think too much about it. Hmm.. Geex. Can somebody give me some advice?

I guess thats all for now. Adios~

Unfair?

2007-05-31T15:30:00.000+08:00

Its just ironic how some people gets all the luck in the world while others dont.

Don't you have these feelings too?

That its seems others are able to get what they want just by asking for it?

Maybe its their good karma eh.

I feel so injustice for the rest.

The Way We See Ourselves

2007-05-25T23:41:00.000+08:00

Just something to ponder on.

QN - How do you see yourself?

DO you compare yourself with another person before seeing yourself?

Or, do you see yourself as your true self? Do you even appreciate yourself for who you are?

Or, are you constantly comparing yourself with others in order to gain appreciation?

Ask yourself this, and see whats ur answer.

(=

Time for an Update.

2007-05-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

Well well well,

its time for an update on my boring life.

AHA.

I'm loving my attachment now. Previously, i treated it as something which i had to do, irregardless i like it or not. Yet somehow, i'm loving every minute of it now. In fact, i'm even considering asking my boss if i could stay back and help out during my break. But, there;s a condition though, i need allowance! aha.

YES, its not cheap going to and fro from potong pasir to pasir panjang, though they both have the word 'pasir'.

Just like that, 11 weeks of attachment have passed and i'm into 12th week. After which, i guess i would be even busier with the preparation of FYP presentations, report and AES. Project is going on quite smoothly, i should say. I wonder my project is simple or tough. Juggling 4 DNA constructs, transformation onto plants, and carrying out genetic analysis (cant wait!). Nevertheless, the most important thing is i am ENJOYING it.
Out of the 4 constructs, 2 of them are near completion and have been sent for sequencing.

Sounds CHIM? Nvm. Its not necessary for you to understand.

LOL.

My main point is,

Put your HEART into everything you do. By doing so, you will enjoy it.

XIN. ( 'heart' in chinese)

Anyway,

had lunch with jeff today. ( i guess we should make every fri our lunch appt. aha)

and there's the class gathering tml.

So there's something to look forward to this weekend.

And before i sign off,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIWEI(=

2007-05-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

See if you can deciper my feelings from these pics.

Oh! the randomness.

2007-05-19T12:57:00.000+08:00

FINALLY,
blogger's working again.

It has been down for like 1 week or something, and here i thought it was my laptop's issue, till Anne asked me if my blooger was working well.

GEEHX.

Well, not that i missed blogger ALOT. Haa, i can still live without it, or so i thought.

So here's some updates on my life.

k-box with the gays and gfs 2 weeks ago;
shopping with mum @ chinatown;
SM3 with Anne on wed (courtesy of Shijin - thanks for the vouchers);
meeting with boss on thurs on project progress;
lunch with Jeff on fri;
proj's going on well and smoothly , i should say.

And thats the end of the list.

Haa, boring life i have, some say.

Anway, there's some things to look forward to this weekend and the upcoming week(:

lunch with Regina later;
nyp institution mtg @ tbsc, its been ages since i went for one. Aha;
women in arts concert with mum and regina tonight;
Sujith's belated celebration on sun;
class gathering @ dr chan house next sat (cant wait for it!)

OH, and there's a lot of nice movies coming up!!!

Priceless (seems quite nice, currently looking for ppl to watch with me)
Pirates 3 (with candy and the gals, hopefully~)
Shrek 3 ( a must!)
Harry Potter (most likely....)

Money, money, money. Ahah...

Oh yep, before i sigh off:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUJITH!(:

2007-05-04T22:51:00.000+08:00

I'm sick again.

Argh. =(

Black is the IN thing.

2007-04-28T14:40:00.000+08:00

Well, first thing to notice would be the change of theme. Not that blogger offers a wide range. *rolls eyes*

Okie. I have nothing much to blog about. Attachment was pretty good this week. There were both positive and negative results. Mentor would not be around next mon = i can slack a bit. Haha. And tues is a holiday. Spiderman, here i come~ (=

Shall post some pictures that I took out of boredom. haha.

`Siang Yee and Me.

`Up the hill to TLL.

`Posing with my plants.

`The plants.

`My seedlings(=

Dinner!

2007-04-27T23:20:00.000+08:00

Dinner with family at home was fab! Its been quite some time since we had steamboat at home. Or rather, quality time spent with my family(:

This is the first time i;m looking forward to a new week. Haha.

Lab safety talk/fire drill briefing on mon with lunch buffet! Hee*
And Tues a holiday! Movie outing with the gals(: Cant wait.

Adios~

Oh Randomness!

2007-04-26T21:44:00.000+08:00

First, congratulations to the sexy babe for getting her motorbike license! (= I see a celebration coming soon! *Winks*

Have not blogged for awhile. Not in the mood and was too lazy. Aha~ =p

Dad's home till the 7th of May. I miss him so much. Home's still the BEST!

Family dinner tml; BBQ on sat. I'm going to get fatter this weekend. Aha. Well, i'll just walk a few more hills then. Haha.

Hmm, i kind of forgotten what i wanted to blog about. Oops. Oh ya, i remembered.

I used to have this thinking that my classmates who are doing their FYP/attachment in school are much more fortunate. Their projects seem to be less complicated, their timing is very flexible - they can leave early once they have finished their work for the day or they can even be absent from work if they have nothing to do for that particular day.
However, come to think of it, having attachment to a company is not as bad as it seems. I have learnt to be more independent (not that I'm not) during practicals as I cant possibly be relying on my mentor all the time. I've learnt to ponder on what I've done for the day, and what i need to do the next day. I've learnt to be more courageous and ask questions when in doubt instead of just putting it aside, and how to get along with my colleagues. Frankly, its a very good experience for me and i should say I'm much more fortunate than the rest.

My supervisor is a very quiet man. However, he always seem to have a smile on him and is very polite. Previously, i used to be very afraid of asking him questions but somehow, i mustered the courage to ask him some questions today, with the aid of my mentor. Seeing my supervisor smiling and laughing when he realised he had made a slight mistake in his explanation, i somehow feel that my supervisor isn;t that scary after all. In fact, probably he's glad I've taken the initiative to ask him questions(= Afterall, it never hurts to ask questions. My next aim would be to participate more during the lab meetings, instead of dozing off. Lolx.

I will continue to work harder.

(=

Check this out!

2007-04-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

孫燕姿 - 咕嘰咕嘰

孫燕姿 - 逆光

Back In Action!

2007-04-16T21:22:00.000+08:00

I'm back for an entry!

Lolx.

The past week was quite an eventful one. Sick on mon, took MC on tues; farewell celebration for colleagues on fri. And Dr Ito took pictures, as usual, again! lOlx.

Sat was spent sleeping; watching anime and slacking. HAHA. But i had breakfast with mum(= And it was a good one too!

Sun afternoon was spent with lovely Anne. Magazine-hunting @ Borders; lunch @ Food Republic; magazine-hunting @ Kino again; VCD-hunting @ Plaza.

I bought 2 magazines!

And both are related to science.

HAHA.

One is NewScientist while the other is DISCOVER.

Was introduced to them by dear Sujith, so decided to try out an issue before deciding on which one to subscribe to.

Had a scare this morning, lost my security pass and was sad that i might have to fork out 50 bucks if i cant find it. BUT, i guess the Gohonzon is protecting me. I managed to find in from the bus driver. I'm just so thankful.

Currently tutoring my younger brother. English and A Maths. Lolx.

Okie. Thats all for now.

I know its a boring entry. Haha..

Well, it cant be helped.

Adios~

Interesting Facts

2007-04-10T20:32:00.000+08:00

The liquid inside young coconuts can be used as a substitute for blood plasma.
No piece of paper can be folded in half more than seven (7) times.
Donkeys kill more people annually than plane crashes.
You burn more calories sleeping than you do watching television.
The first product to have a bar code was Wrigley's gum.
The King of Hearts is the only king WITHOUT A MOUSTACHE.
Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.
It is possible to lead a cow upstairs... but, not downstairs.
A duck's quack doesn't echo, and no one knows why.
Dentists have recommended that a toothbrush be kept at least six (6) feet away from a toilet to avoid airborne particles resulting from the flush.

Adios~

Carine(=

2007-04-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

I'm on medical leave.

Guess its true when that say that when your heart is sick, your body will fall sick too.

Wish me a speedy recovery!

*cough cough*

2007-04-06T10:29:00.000+08:00

Let me rephrase my previous post.

I should not have written that i hate my class. Cause its not exactly hate.

Its more like anger?

Yes, it is.

I'm angry with the class.
I'm angry with myself.
I'm angry with almost everyone else.

What a sad world I'm in.

BUT.

That anger is going to end soon.

I'm not going to wallow in this pitiful world, thinking that my life is going to end soon and all those shit.

I'm going to buck up.

For myself, my family and friends who are concerned for me.

Yes. Just by this statement, I;m feeling much better already.

Anyway, it seems that I'm rejecting people's offers these days.

Haha. Is this a sign that i'm becoming more personal from now on?

Probably. I feel the same way. These days, I'm just sick and tired of opening my weak heart to others. I'm going to protect this little essential heart from now on. No more am I going to be the nice Carine which you guys know.

Whats the point?

BUT, I'm not exactly going to be a nasty person.

I just want to erase the word 'nice' from my description.

No more am i going to be the nice classrep who always spare a thought for her class, thinking of ways to help them.

No more am i going to be the nice girl who waits for others to share their problems with her, till the day her hair grows white.

No more am i going to be the nice organizer who tries her best to suit everyone's timing, but yet people can still be un-bothered to give their reply, sitting on their asses waiting for the poor soul to extort a reply from them.

NO MORE.

Get this clear?

Know what this means?

I have to learn to think for myself more. Rather than for others. Cause it seems I'm always the one getting hurt.

MORE THAN ONCE.

2007-04-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

I hate my class.

2007-04-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

I'm tired. But not exactly tired.

I'm bored. But not exactly bored.

Contradicting?

Yes, it is.

I'm having trouble concentrating these days. Cant seem to focus on the experiments which I'm carrying out. All i keep yawning. All i yearn for is sleep and rest.

I'm looking forward to my next holiday in sept/oct. Cant wait to visit my second home again(=

Emotionally wise, I'm stable. Lolx.

Sunday's dinner at Swensens was so-so. The baked fish rice was not up to the usual standard. But, the company is great. I had fun laughing with the girls(= Missed them so much.

What should i blog? Hmm. Nothing much to blog, cause there's nothing interesting in my life currently.

OH, there's 2 eye-candy at TLL.

HEE*

Girls Night Out(=

2007-04-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

`Acting Cute

`Emo Girls

`L.O.V.E

`Gfs forever

2007-03-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

I got my security pass! (=

The picture is slightly blur. Pardon my camera. Its only 2.0 mega pix. (=

Friday is arriving in a few more hours time(=
Another week flew by, just like that.
Attachment was pretty boring this week, doing repetitive work. PCR; Gel Electrophoresis; Harvesting seeds; Planting seeds. I'm exposing myself to EtBr everyday. I hope I don't die so early. =(

Dinner with sisterz tomorrow;
lunch with grandma on sat;
dinner with gfs on sun.

Cant wait.

(=

2007-03-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling much better after the previous post. Seems that a chunk of my unhappiness has been lifted off. I have never felt much better. Phew.

Anyway, its thanks to a special friend that I;m feeling much better now too. She never fails to make me laugh(=

I'm currently searching for accounting/marketing courses which i can do after my graduation. Does anyone have any suggestions? And i'm going to do a bit of accounting in yr3 sem2. Yeah. Cant wait for it.

I think its seems very ironic. Rather, a lot of things on earth are ironic.
I used to say that i would never be caught dead doing business or business related subjects. Yet here i am interested in marketing and accounting. lOlx. And in fact, i'm getting kind of sick of SCIENCE.

And... my classmates aren't making good use of the class blog. Rather, schoolmates from other classes are checking my class blog regularly for updates. Its just so ironic. Don't you think so?

I might as well be the class-rep of that class. At least my work is appreciated over there. (=

Anyway, its just another year. And it will all be gone.

Adio~

SUNDAYS.

2007-03-25T18:37:00.000+08:00

(Warning... this is going to be a not-so-nice post.)

So to those who are overly sensitive.. i would suggest you switch pages immediately.

Gosh. My sundays are boring.

Today was spent on sleeping, watching drama serials, nagging at my younger brother, snacking, having headaches.

GEEHX.

Where's my life?

Hiax. So sad. This would be what Shijin's comment would be. lOlx. She's such a fun and lovely girl(:

Results were out on wednesday. I did pretty well. 1 C+; 1B+; 3A's; 2DIST. By chance? No way. I mugged like hell this semester. It was the first time i was so determined in studying for the exams. And i did memorised like shit for the medical bio. Lolx. So to those who did that I'm getting good results cause i'm just smart and do not have to work hard and that you guys are slogging like hell but still cant win me, i only have this to say to you:

WAKE UP!.

Stop thinking about how you can win over others and be selfish and start thinking about how you can WIN OVER YOURSELF. Win over the inner devil inside each and every one of us. Sure, i believed that none of us are evil. BUT, people are just vulnerable. They succumb to their inner desires. OUCH. My words hurt right.

ARE MY NOTES DAMN GOOD??? Is that why you are always sucking up to me?

YES. This post is meant to be HARSH.

I HATE people who comment that I'm smart. I'm good etc..

Carine... your results are so good. I onli get 3.1.... Your results are better than mine. I cant even get higher than 3.0.... etc etc...

FUCK!

So what if I get 3.5?

There are others who are better than me! 3.999... even 4.0... why don;t you go and talk to them then!

Each of us have our own targets. To you, 3.5 might seem very high. Yes, indeed, i do not deny. But so? My goal is different from you. Our goals are all different. You think that having 3.5 is damn great. Yeah right. Youc an continue to live in your selfish... and greedy world for all i care.

Hmp.

My head hurts like hell.

Strive On!

2007-03-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

I have thought it through and hard, I am not going to sit on the problem and let it pass. I shall face it bravely and think of a solution instead of running away from it.

YES, you can do it Carine(=

And yes, i have managed to think of a solution regarding the decision about being the class rep, and i DO and am HOPEFULLY that it will work out(=

BE POSITIVE.

Hmm, I think I'm weird. lOlx. I dislike knowing about others' lives. I guess its cause i cant be bothered and I do not want to be labelled as a 'KPO'. Yes, I do not want others to feel that I am interfering into their lives, unless they willingly tell me. Then that will be a different thing.

(=

Anyway, Monday's arriving. Here goes my weekend.=(

Till then,
Carine

2007-03-17T22:33:00.000+08:00

Somehow, i dunno what i should blog about. Aha..

Updates on my life eh... Well, i have been busy with attachment from Mon to Fri. Met up with Malcom, Kel and Anne for dinner at Somerset. The dinner was so-so, and i wasted 12 bucks. Geehx. That can last me a week at TLL.

Was feeling pretty down since last sunday, but then i fell sick on tues, and there was quite a lot of work to do at TLL, and hence i did not have any time to think about stuff...

The class rep thingy kept bugging me the whole week. Yes, i need to come to a decision. Should I step down or not? I realli feel like giving myself a kick and say, Hurry Up and make a decision! Then you wun feel so miserable!

It seems no one can understand my true feelings. Cause even I myself have trouble figuring them out.

Can someone help me?

Attachment.

2007-03-13T21:12:00.000+08:00

Attachment is tiring, but i kind of enjoyed it.

It has been 2 days since i started my attachment at TLL. Well, TLL is situated at the top of a hill, so i get free 'exercise' daily. lOlx. And since it was raining heavily today, i was drenched from waist down. My shoes were leaving wet footprints wherever i walked. -_-

My supervisor is a nice, quiet and serious man. He's a jap(= And the project which i am doing is quite interesting too.

PROJECT TITLE
Production of Super Arabidopsis Plants - manipulation of floral organ identity and developmental stages for biochemical analysis.

OBJECTIVES
1. Making DNA constructs.
2. Transforming plants with DNA constructs.
3. Selection of transgenic plants.
4. Functional analysis of transgenic plants.

I guess the above clearly indicates what my project is about(;
I'm begining to feel more for plants. Haa. yeah, cause my supervisor says we need to have affection for the plants, so they can grow better. Lolx.

Time passed quite quickly at TLL, probably cause i have a list of things to do throughout the day and hence i did not have much time to daydream and stuff. lOlx. Tuesday mornings are for meetings, and i almost slept during the meeting today as i did not have an idea what the whole presentation was about. Very chim and foreign. Haha. =x

Kinda got stressed out during the meetings, as Mr Ito would like to see participation from us. But, the thing is i dont have an idea what the presentation was about, hence i could not ask any questions...

Nevertheless, i did managed to get a clearer understanding of what the project is about and requires me to do witht he aid of my mentor, Siou Ting. She'a a friendly and helpful girl, and answers my questions readily. I hope i can grasp a better udnerstanding of the whole project by next week.(;

Well, i shall stop here.

Till then,

Carine

2007-03-11T16:38:00.000+08:00

2007-03-11T15:48:00.000+08:00

2007-03-11T15:33:00.000+08:00

Hmm. What should i blog about?

All of a sudden, i don't have a idea of what should be written in this post, and what should be left out. I'm at a loss.

Decided to remove the previous skin cause it was giving me lots of problems, and decided to stick to the plain and simple blogskins offered here. Well, its the contents that matter more rather than the layout right? (=

Since deleting all my previous posts, i have been asked many a times for the reason. Lolx. I should say there's no particular reason for me to keep the previous posts. Lets just say i would rather not harp on all the unhappy issues and start afresh. Its a good thing, at least in my point of view.

I'm 19. No longer can i act like a child. Yes, i have to start thinking about my future. Hmm, and sometimes, i'm at a loss. Was life sciences the right track for me? Yes, this question has been lingering in my mind for the past few weeks. What exactly is my mission in life? Research? Or...? Frankly, and sadly, i do not have the answer to this.

I do hope the attachment will aid me in my decision. I realli do have the passion for life sciences. Its just that the passion is no longer burning so brightly. Somehow, there is a tinge of regretness? But my pride refuses to admit that i made the wrong choice. So, is this the right or wrong choice? Thats for me to find out(=

I had been rather emotional when exams ended. Feeling empty all of a sudden, with no goal in life. Lost in my own world? Probably...

But, things will perk up! I hope(=
I have been enjoying myself for the past 2 days, going out with friends, having high tea with the class, k session and the IT fair. All in all, i'm feeling much much better.(=

Jia you! Carine!

2007-03-07T20:21:00.000+08:00

Currently having a one week break before my attachment starts on 12 March 2007.

Temasek Life Sciences Lab.

Anyone heard of this place before?
Hmm, i wonder what i'll be doing over there for my attachment and final year project.
24 weeks = 6 months.

Anyway, lets not talk about the attachment.

Caught DreamGirls with anne this afternoon. Its a pity Sujith could not join us.=(
Its a splendid show, with a touch of sadness here and there, and beautiful songs. Yeah, the only time when i felt uncomfortable was when Jennifer Hudson started singing in her high pitched voice. It felt like she was kind of 'screaming', which made me almost want to cover my ears. But this does not mean she's not a good singer. Probably high pitched singing is not my cup of tea.(:

There was one song sung by Jennifer Hudson which touched my heart. (Yes, she sand in a much lower key, with i was comfortable with) I almost teared when i heard the song, but had to refrain from doing so lah. =p

And there's the rock n roll version which i simply love too(:

Beyonce's Listen is my most favourite song from the movie.
Check it out!

Enjoy(:
Carine.

Brand New Start

2007-03-06T20:44:00.000+08:00

A brand new start. I hope this post appears, if not i'm gonna bitch about blogger! lOlx.

Deleted all my old posts. Going to start brand new. Forget the unhappiness, remember the happy times(:

Wanna share this song with you guys(:

Enjoy.